Mental decline, no motivation, … is it a mental illness? I need advice.?
I have declined so much over the past 2.5 years, and I want to know what is happening to me and what I should do about it.
I am 22 years old (female), was always a high achiever, had scholarships, and I am now in grad school in a very prestigious program. 3 years ago I had depression and I recovered on prozac within a year. However, I came out a different person and the change was for the worse.
For the past 2.5 years, I have suffered from:
Severe lack of motivation
Severe paralysis of action
Time wasting and losing track of time (generally doing nothing all day)
I am very Isolated (the only person I interact with is my isolated boyfriend)
Bad concentration
Dependence of my boyfriend for even little things like telling me it is time to eat
Mental decline (I feel that my brain is just not as present… I am not as sharp as I used to be)
I get a great feeling from completing tasks if I manage to do it. Even taking a shower or finishing 1 problem on an assignment or heating a meal gives me a great sense of accomplishment. Yet, it takes me forever for me to start the next “task”. I feel almost hypnotized and too mentally passive most of the time, and like I am watching time go by. Setting long term goals and working towards them are way beyond me right now. I AM SCARED. I AM WASTING MY LIFE.
What do you think is the cause of all this? Is it a mental illness, or is it something most people go through but learn how to conquer? And either way, can you give me advice on what to do about it?
So I “caught” ADD is the last 2.5 years? I was fine before that.